The deepest wound
A body has ever felt
Sadness that tears me apart from the inside out
Grief unadulterated
This pain craves a pool to swim in
This pain could drive a person mad
Or to do something as crazy as
Listen
Lay down on the ground
Ear to the earth
And imagine it's not trying to kill me
Even the thought is utterly terrifying
To be okay
AND to cry
To lie down limp
Lifeless
And let life live around me
Let her weep inside
Build a nest in which to reside
Give the pain a graceful kindness
Sweep her hair to the side
Hear the story bleeding from her eyes
The discomfort is becoming too much to bear
What is this feeling of too much
I'm afraid it will take me over
I'm afraid it will kill me
I'm afraid I will be swept away with the tide
And never remembered
But for my crimes
Stealing time
Corrupting minds
Trudging through mines
Stabbing blind
How do I hold this
Enduring pain
How can I feel so much and not run away
Not escape the sharpness
My body shutters
Before I even have a chance to feel
--June 5 2018
jitana
